Why do I always get the shit end of the stick?

I've recently been trying to go out with this one girl in my life, but had no progress.  It was complicated at first, but then I thought things were sorting out.  We've hung out a couple of times and even talked on the phone for hours.  Now it turns out she's been playing me, or she just sees me as more of a brother.  Yeah well you don't fucking cuddle with your brother.  I don't know if she's saying it to cover up something, or she's just saying it to test me, but I don't like it.  She kind of hinted me before, but I wanted to ignore it.  Now it's time to grow up and face the fact that she sees me as a friend and nothing more.  ]:

IT'S NOT FAIR !

How can everyone else can find the one they're looking for and I can't.  I try and try my best to meet a decent girl and show her the love of her lifetime but I always end up getting stomped on.  I also think too much about simple things.  When I do like someone, I take it overboard and scare them off.  I want a relationship so badly that it's getting to the point where I'll take whatever I get.  I hate how I everytime I try to be a gentleman I'm the on that gets trampled on and walked all over.  I'm a pretty good boyfriend compared to some of these other guys out there and I don't get what makes me so vulnerable?  I'm used, cheated on, and walked by all the time and I don't know if it's my own personal flaw or not.  It annoys and frustrates me how I get to be "Mr. Nice Guy," yet everytime I try to go for a girl, they turn out to be a whore or leave me anyways.  I'm tired of doing this and I don't know how much more I can handle, it's sad but it's life. ]:

"It takes alot more courage to look back and forgive than to stare into the eyes of hatred" - Miguel Barrera.

Busy Life.

I haven't been on Blogger for a long time since around Christmas and New Years. I've made some good and bad choices since then and I've realized that life can't be put away in a box. You have to live your life the way you want to, and now how others want you to live it. You never know when you may leave this world, so make your stay worth it. Everyday you choose to trust, from the trusting the bus driver to take you straight to school, and trusting other motorists on how to know how to drive, to trusting your teachers to teach you what is needed for the next step in education. Each and everyday we trust someone and something, and we take it for granted. Keep your friends close, and your enemies even closer.